DIARY OF A BROKEN HEARTED GIRL4

There was a whole lot of drama going on in her life at that particular moment... She wanted out so badly that she was willing to do anything.. Finally, she moved on... Moved into another relationship before her heart was totally healed... She knew it was wrong... She knew it was a rebound relationship but she wanted out so bad that she looked past what she knew was right.. She just kept pushing and fighting to get out that she forgot that she was suppose to analyze things.. She didn't necessarily forget to think I guess.. She just refused to do so...
It was all rosy until he had to leave to serve his fatherland... That was when she started having the intuition that something wasn't right... She ignored it.. She doubted herself and that was a terrible MISTAKE.... She knew her intuitions never lied... She knew better than to doubt herself but she did it anyway... She did what most girls do... Refuse to accept the truth... She just wanted to see it work sooo bad that she started second guessing herself.. The signs were there... The handwriting was bold but she decided not to take the cue.... A year passed and things seemed to normalize so she thought doubting herself was the right thing to do... Eighteen months down the line and they both had plans of settling down if everything went well.  She was happy.... She was content but she had doubts... She didn't understand why she had doubts but she had them anyway... She thought she had met THE ONE... So she pushed every other guy away... She focused on just him...
Fortunately, there was this heavy feeling in her heart that things could go wrong..  There was this constant fear of “loosing him"... It was overwhelming sometimes so she just had it at the back of her mind that there was a chance that things won't go as smoothly as she thought it would... Things seemed to be going great until exactly 2years and 6months into the relationship.... She got the GREAT SHOCKER... That's what she calls it when narrating the story to her friends....